[Of course Squall tries to make it okay, even now, even like this. Which only makes it more important that he find those words, finally give voice to them. Things he should have said to friends, to family, to lovers. If he'd said such things to the people he cared about, if any of them had been honest about their emotions maybe... Maybe there wouldn't have been so many willing to turn their backs on each other.
An unfair burden to put upon himself, or anyone, but a thought that comes whether he wants it to or not.]
Home- [Another strangled murmur of that one word that means so much. Nyx doesn't have more words in him, not when those he has said cost so much. Instead he tucks his head into the crook of Squall's shoulder, leaning down just enough to press his lips over his lover's heart. The closest he'd ever allowed himself to come to those words before, with Pelna, with Libertus. The people that had meant so much to him.
People he hasn't truly let himself grieve here, too busy pushing and pushing to stay busy, to do more, to not stop and allow himself the time to really think about how much pain came with all that had happened.]
'm sorry. [Mumbled against his skin as Nyx gradually succumbs to sobs once again.]
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An unfair burden to put upon himself, or anyone, but a thought that comes whether he wants it to or not.]
Home- [Another strangled murmur of that one word that means so much. Nyx doesn't have more words in him, not when those he has said cost so much. Instead he tucks his head into the crook of Squall's shoulder, leaning down just enough to press his lips over his lover's heart. The closest he'd ever allowed himself to come to those words before, with Pelna, with Libertus. The people that had meant so much to him.
People he hasn't truly let himself grieve here, too busy pushing and pushing to stay busy, to do more, to not stop and allow himself the time to really think about how much pain came with all that had happened.]
'm sorry. [Mumbled against his skin as Nyx gradually succumbs to sobs once again.]